[[Princess's Dreams]]

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

[[Solitude]]

Found a new mugging area... the study carrels at HSS... it's great cos it just shuts out everything around you.. and it's just me, labbie and my stack of notes... of course I choose to destroy my own concentration with MSN...
Now I'm home..midway through CGHQ which Yvonne Lee said to read in detail... and the aircon pple has came to service the aircon... so there's a freaking NOISY machine outside the room whirring away like nobody's business... imagine the sound the fruit juicer makes when the fruit is shoved in to get mutilated... ok AMPLIFY it and imagine it going NON-STOP... Argh..
Aircon man has just informed me that aircon is filthy.. think my nose is also an alarm to when aircon needs servicing, acts up whenever the filter starts getting choked with dust.. probably generated by my stacks of UNTOUCHED notes..
I am a conflicted person...but no I'm not yet schizo... I need company yet I crave solitude... weird no? In secondary and primary school days where people (ok at least i do) go home after school... I'll go home and lock myself in my room and there I'll stay the whole time until mom and dad returns home... and I like that feeling.. such is the life of an only child... therefore at home, I cannot stand to study with noise around me... it's different in school cos everyone's mugging anyway no one makes that much noise ha.. but at home it's just ME mugging away... and so I need to feel like I'm in my own solidary world
People always ask, isn't it lonely being an only child? No, I'm a very self-entertaining person. It's a misconception I tell you that only children are lonely ... and pple's favourite question when I was small, ask mommy to give you another brother or sister? *input own indulgent smile* No thanks. I dun share my parents... yes I'm possessive ... haha! When i was a kid... i used to hate it when my dad smiled at other people, esp kids... and when he gets calls from female pple for work.. I throw tantrums :) stupid kid
STOP BLOWING THE AIRCON MACHINE! IM TRYING TO READ!!!

[[Lil Princess Wrote On]]*|11:04 PM|

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